Well, it was going to happen. I suspect that after three months of eating more or less 1100 calories a day (not counting alcohol calories) that my body might be saying, enough already, and it's protesting. The last few days I've noticed that I seem to be logging far more calories into CoM earlier in the day, and not feeling satisfied with what I've eaten until I'm at around 1100 (which tends to be late at night, and then I stop and just drink herbal teas). But right now I am hungry, and I've been hungry all day.
I think I need to give in, at least for tonight. Maybe tomorrow as well, and then we shall see. I really don't want to up my calories. My weight loss has been nice and steady and I really, really want to hit a certain point before the wedding, but I would like my body to co-operate, please.
I do know CR is not about the weight loss, but I have been so long out of tune with what my body really needs and requires that it takes a lot not to focus on the visible, on the tangible. Of course, right now my body is telling me it's not happy. I guess I need to listen, and work out exactly what it is it wants.
I think I am very tired. It's been a lot of running around, and I play too hard. But I really don't want to be this tired. I want to be full of CRON bounce and positivity and verve and... but I am not. I am... knackered. Working in the garden, digging the allotment patch and weeding and building a bonfire should not take so much out of me.
I am cooking dinner for my neighbours tonight, in an hour or so. I've got all my vitamins and minerals down already, a bit low on B12, and iron. So I need to let myself eat and enjoy it! We've got a yoghurty lebanese dip and bread (and I shall dip with chicory), and gnocchi (I'm going to roast some cherry tomatoes with garlic for a sauce) and tenderstem broccoli. And a huge pineapple.
And then lots and lots of sleep.