Thank you everyone for your comments and kind thoughts. It's been a strange and disconcerting and disorientating week and it is somehow grounding to know people are reading this blog and taking the time to respond to my posts.
Irritatingly, once more I find myself on an unplanned visit to London because when I got home late on Wednesday, I found my ADSL router was non-functioning and of course without it, I can't really work from home. Slow is not the word. So after spending yesterday on dial-up into the office (urgh), I left home at 3.30am this morning to drive up because I was just too tired last night to contemplate it. I haven't been sleeping at all well recently, and feel incredibly stressed and hassled. This happens, I find, when I am away from home for an extended amount of time and not on vacation. I hate living out of a rucksack, not having my things around me, not being able to eat Sara food as and when, and I've been doing that for over a week now and will be doing so until early next week, and then some more when we head north for the funeral at the end of it.
On the bright side, I got to see the sun rise behind Stonehenge at 4am! Or as near to sunrise as it was going to get - it was actually raining and with a striking grey band of cloud on the horizon... but the concept is still good, right?
I will struggle through the rest of today with the help of strong coffee (and maybe power naps in the loos). I forgot to bring my scales with me this time, but I did manage to be organised enough last night to pack a salad and cottage cheese with LLBY for lunch, and enter it all into CoM so I know where I am nutritionally.
Then this evening, I hope I finally get to meet my good friend N's new baby boy C - I say hope because the poor little mite has been in and out of hospital for blood tests because he has a mild case of jaundice. Those of you who are mothers will be able to appreciate how frantic N is at the moment not knowing the results. With luck they will be in later today, and N can enjoy introducing C to his Bad Auntie Sara. I am very excited about this; I hope my friends' children will be an important part of my future.
I hope everyone has good weekends... with better weather than we are promised here! We've gone from summer in spring to winter in summer and I am not amused.
Oh, and out of curiosity, is anyone reading this not vaguely zoned in their eating? There was an interesting posting on one of the CR lists about 90g protein resulting in higher incidence of mortality... Of course, I don't understand these things, but the posting also used as an alternative example a diet that was lower in fat and protein and higher in veggie carb - and since I struggle with keeping my veggie carbs to 40%, and getting both my fats and protein to 30%, I was wondering if this might be a better ratio for me. Sometimes I feel really icky on a day when I've done 90g protein... Huh. My brain just keeps ticking away on the trivial, doesn't it?