Tuesday, 20 May 2008

Farewell Thunderchild

P and I had to have one of the cats put to sleep last week. Thunder, one of the floppiest bundles of feline joy I have ever had the pleasure to hear purring in my ear. He developed a very sudden and aggressive cancer of the larynx and it was almost immediately apparent that we had no choice but to let him go. So last Wednesday night we slept with him in the bed between us, and last Thursday morning I held his paw and put my face down by his and heard him breathe out his last laboured breath in one long whimper of (I hope) relief. It is very sad. I miss him dreadfully, and the next morning when we woke up, there were not enough tails and paws in the bed.

J continues to rally. This seems to be such a miracle; no, is such a miracle. That something could be done when he was so low, that something was done. I am very thankful for it. We're not out of the woods by a long way yet, but there is more hope now. At least he is being pulled back into the world, rather than lingering in the suspended half-life that is existence in an isolation unit in a stroke ward.

So a sad thing, and a happy thing, and neither to do with CRON.

Once again I am two minds whether to continue this blog at all. Linda writes in her journal that if you aren't measuring your calories, or monitoring your nutrition, then you are not practicing CRON. I am doing neither right now. I'm eating everything I ate in more or less the same quantities as I did when I was practicing properly last year, and I'm losing (or have lost) weight. The latter is not surprising given we've not been eating out half as much in between hospital visits, work and travelling. I'm monitoring the weight loss, but I'm not monitoring my diet with CRON-0-METER. I'm a good ad lib eater; I have confidence in a lifetime of good eating habits to carry me through right now. The results of the blood tests I had done back in December were apparently excellent.

So if I am not CRON, do I blog? Hmm, don't know. Doesn't stop me reading other blogs though, so I am around.

In other news, I've been gardening fiendishly. The courtyard is crammed with pots of herbs and flowers and I am eating my own salad at least once a day. I can't eat it any more than that because a hungry Sara would do more damage to a tub of leaves than an army of slugs, and I do need to leave some things to grow. Another month, and even I should be defeated by the quantity of greenery that has been sown. The squash plants are growing steadily, although they could do with some more warmth. The beans are climbing away up their poles. I really *must* get my kale into the ground.

Yesterday I thought of channelling the spirit of Miss M, and eating the nettles and ground elder that I was dragging out of the flower beds, but in the end my nerve failed me. I had visions of mistaking the apparently nutritious and delicous tasing ground elder for something less benign, and being found poisoned in my kitchen surrounded by evidence of my veggie gluttony. Maybe in a few days. It is a crime just to chuck nature's bounty on the compost heap, after all. And there is a lot of ground elder out there for the picking.

5 comments:

Linda said...

Sorry to hear about the loss of Thunderchild - I know what it is to lose a loved feline companion. Please do continue the blog. None of us does CRON perfectly all the time, I know I often fall short of my own standards! The work to achieve proper CRON is all a part of the experience and this includes those days when for whatever reason it doesn't happen.

O30T said...

Hi there ...

I am so terribly sorry for your loss, how very sad to loose part of your family ... RIP Thunderchild.

I love reading your blog. I do not think that CRON is all about calories and weights and and and ... it is a way of life so please continue to blog ...

Hugs O30T

miss m said...

Sorry to hear about the kitty :(

Re: ground elder, if it has a triangular stem, you have the right plant... munch away :)

Arturo said...

Hi Sara
Sorry about the loss of your dear pet.

I think you're practicing CRON without logging it all in. Who is to set rules for you? You enjoy writing, so why not write when you feel moved to? Deborah, for example, is busy, but she just posted, after a month. So be it. I wouldn't just stop blogging because your practice of CRON doesn't feel perfect when compared to others' practice. Mine is not perfect. I've gained 5 pounds. (Laugh) I do want to lose them, though, they hurt my yoga.
hugs
Arturo

April said...

Sara,

I'm so sorry for your loss. Big hugs!

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